The Porcelain Tomb

Kompositsioonikavand "Saun" by Luts, Karin

The cascade of water falls as I sit in the porcelain tub Hoping if I sit long enough the water will erode my skin down to the bone I become a skeleton left to lay in my porcelain tomb That’s how much I try to rid my body  of the presence of you… To try and rid my body of your fingerprints Trying to rid my body of the evidence of all your unwarranted advances I have been sitting here for hours long The cost of this water bill will be nothing compared to what I just lost I rake at my skin ‘till red and raw hating how my body betrayed me when it convulsed He thought I liked it… He thought I liked it… He thought I liked it! Even when I tried to push him off he thought I was just playing along His ego was far too strong

I couldn’t fight back So I laid there and let him have it Now I hate myself for that So I let the cascade of water fall Hoping if I sit long enough the water will erode my stone cold body Eroding away at all the guilt all the shame… all his dna… down this narrow drain Hoping it doesn’t get clogged from all the waste I’m trying to wash off So, I scrub… and scrub… and scrub… I scrub so much I run out of soap Still, I scrub… and scrub… and scrub… down to the bone I become a skeleton left to lay in my porcelain tomb and I become one of many women who left her skeleton  to lay in her porcelain tomb

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